Wow! Have I not really posted anything in this long? This is just a travesty. Ok, maybe not. It's been awhile and I'm sure plenty has happened in that time. Oh yeah, I got a promotion at work. How cool is that. I'm making a significant chunk more than I used to and (for me) that's alot of dough. Only this past week did I realize exactly what all went along with that promotion.
At work the holiday season is the time of year where everyone goes mad trying to present the perfect legislative picture of what the holidays are suppossed to be. In the background everyone runs around without a single clue as to what's going on and everyone eventually stresses themselves out for no reason. Here's where I fit in: As everyone is trying to prepare for their parties and festivities and trying to see to other agendas that are going on concurrently; I'm left to try to manage a dwindled staff because they're either replacing the staffers (in other offices) who are scratching their asses as to what they're suppossed to do or aiding our office in helping these jackasses execute their "well planned" objectives. While it may seem that I'm whining about simply having to answer the phone it transcends that; the phones ring non-stop, problems arise in other office duties that require immediate attention that I, as the only one in the office, am able to attend to; I have my own assignments that I'm needing to get done that have to take the back burner until I have a free moment and whiny, needy staff that complain over the smallest inconvenience and who expect to be rewarded for nothing. Hmmm....I guess that's a mouthful. Add to that my desired/required presence on a Saturday at work to make sure the parties and festivities go off smoothly...yuck! I'm sorry but my idea of a Happy Holiday does not include: children, Santa, choirs or any sort of Christmas well-wishing. I'm strictly about the materialistic observance of the holiday.
On a related in that it pisses me off note: Sadie is being a complete total bitch. One (and I say this in that I have no concrete evidence) of the cats has pissed and crapped on the carpet. Sadie has been knocking and breaking Alex's things and I'm sure she's the one who did the nasty deeds. I don't know if its a phase that she's going through or perhaps she's trying to tell me something but something needs to be done. I wonder if the whole making a dog smell its poop to make it stop going indoors a la that woman on Trading Spouses actually works? I'll have to try it sometime.
Ok, I'm sure I've bored several with my whining and I truly do apologise...NOT! Your sorry skank ass read this whole thing...what does that say about you? In any case, my next post will cover my crappy Saturday and anything interesting that comes up in between...ciao!

You are STEWIE GRIFFIN! You're only a year old,
but you've already got plans for world
domination, if only that matronly harridan
would get out of your way! You're calculating
and highly intelligent, but you have a very
soft side that few people see. You get
defensive when cornered, and you really do work
best alone. You love being served by others,
and you're very reluctant to admit defeat.


Which Family Guy character are you? (12 outcomes)
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Well shit, more people read this than I had thought. With that in mind I'll try to make these more interesting or at the very least more informational.
Well, the President and Senator Kerry have debated twice at this point. The President is an arrogant hot head and I can't wait to see if he'll be unseated. I really can't think of a president in recent memory who's been so loved while simultaneously being so hated. It's rather silly....especially when you consider how revered he was three years ago. Republican greed has it's price and hopefully it will be at the expense of the elections. Kerry's mopped the floor with the President at the debates and I can only hope that momentum carried him to the Oval Office in November. If you're a registered voter, vote! (for Kerry...heehee).
Lately I've been rather inspired to begin my own fansite and fan forum. You've heard me rave about Drew Fuller and I'm actually a staff member of a forum for him. The people there are amazing and its a fun way to be creative. My friend Lou created the site and its been spectacular to watch it grow from the single digits to double. I'm still eagerly anticipating the triple digits.
Anywho, back to MY creations. I thought to myself, I pretty much know what all goes into these, why don't I start one for someone I admire. Now at this point, if you know me, you should know who I've started the forum and fansite for. If you don't, shame on you!
The fansite has been put on the back burner while I work on the forum which is far more interative and in constant need of my eyes. The site I hope to be somewhat nice and classy (far more structured than my own personal site), so I'm taking my sweet time with it.
The fan forum is essentially done. There's still a lot of material I'm needing to load and I need to go about advertising it, which is far more work than I'm accustomed (but something I did for Drew Fuller Chat, Lou's site). The forum is called Madonna Fan Forum as is the name of the fansite. The forum is rather small but it's only a week old so...you know, fuck off. Like I said about the fansite, I haven't had time to work on it so there's only the main page at this point. If you get a chance, check them out.

Sadie's crying and my breath stinks, so I'm gonna kick Sadie out of the room and brush my teeth. Later

I don't know if there's something in the air (which there is, and its giving me the sneezing fits) but I'm having a nice sense of completion. Lately, as you may or may not have noticed, I've been writing some fanfiction for DrewFullerForum.Com It was a collaborative effort but now I'm working on my own and its fantabulous! It really gives my creativeness an outlet with which to explore and I find myself constantly thinking about what aspects of the story I'm going to manipulate. For anyone interested, Drowned World is being published (so to speak) on www.fanfiction.net A direct link to the story can be found here: http://www.fanfiction.net/u/657393/

Ok, I've added a link where anyone (if interested) can read the story I mentioned in my last post. It's finished now, well that portion anyway. I started a new thread to continue the story as the sole writer and I titled that bit Drowned World. If you know me you know I stole that title from a Madonna song but it seems totally appropriate for what I intend for this story. You'll have to check it out. http://www.drewfullerforum.com/viewtopic.drew?t=845
In Sadie news, little butt had tapeworms. They were sooo incredibly disgusting. Three or four days of this I had to suffer and I was completely repulsed. I took her to the vet as soon as I could and got that shit taken care of. Little bits of worm would randomly come out of her butt, like little boogers. Then they dried and turned into rice. OMG...I'm gonna vomit.
That's pretty much it. I'm bored and tired so I'm leaving now. Ciao!

Ok, I don't know if its maturity settling in or domestication but life's been really dull lately. I don't know exactly how to describe it. I'm just sooo bored. Part of me thinks it might have been the relocation I did last year to North Austin, y'know away from city...but a part of me think its just a mellowing. I have to admit I'm a lot older and wiser than I used to be...but making mistakes can be fun and exciting. Its the vitality of trying new things I'm missing and I haven't tried anything new in a long time.
One release for me is this Charmed fanfiction I've been writing on DrewFullerForum. It started out as a collaborative effort by a lot of forum members but eventually I just took the helm. I'm really happy with all that I've written and I'm dying to write more. Right now I'm at a point where I'm gonna finish that thread and continue the story in a new one, where I'll be the complete author. It's just a matter of wrapping up where I am and creating the passage for the next chapter, so to speak.
Sadie has been driving me crazy lately. She won't shut up. Ordinarily I won't mind but she won't let me sleep at night. My roomate was up on the phone one morning and heard me wake up 3 times within an hour. Lord knows how much more often I have to wake up because of her. I'm gonna have to find a solution to where I give her attention and I get sleep. So far no luck. I'll keep updating on this.

Alrightie, what's happened this past month? Oh yeah, remember that total hottie I stated I've been infatuated with (ok, maybe infatuated isn't the word. How about facinated by)? His name is Drew Fuller and he's been playing Chris on Charmed. He had a live chat in mid-June that I was fortunate enough to have caught. Oh, it was amazing! And I got to ask him a question. He's great.
My birthday was a few days before that live chat. It was pretty low key but fun nonetheless. Didn't get wasted but I sure did make a memorable video (Patty knows what I'm talking about).
Well crap, I summed up the month. Not very exciting, huh? Well get over it!

I haven't posted anything in awhile. Sorry about that! Plenty has happened in the month I've been MIA. Most recently I've come into the possession of a pretty little kittie. Her name is Sadie and she's approximately 6-7 months. She sooo cute. I'll post a pic as soon as I can get one. She's an awesome cat but she's all jacked up. Her tummy was torn when she was younger so she has a horizontal scar across her belly, she was infested with fleas and ear mites and has an eye infection. She also has some dental problems that I'm a bit worried about. I'll be taking her to the vet soon to get that checked out. She's a really good cat and I'm definitely glad I got her (despite her health/financial issues). I'll post more in the coming days recapping the past month.

Have you ever been so completely surrounded by idiots? Ok, maybe not total idiots; but certainly people that do idiotic things. I just surprises me how little people are willing to think for themselves. I guess it is much easier to have someone direct you to do something than actually trying to solve a small problem. I don't know.

Ok, if you've been following the blog then you know that I have been having some issues with my eyes. Well longer story shorter, I woke up this morning with one eye noticeably redder than the other. All I have to say is that if I have pink eye again, I'm going to completely stop shaking peoples hands and will apply Purell on a constant basis (not that I don't do that now). Someone's dirty ass habits are rubbing off on me and I don't appreciate it. Mmmm, now if I could only track that person down...

Wow! I got an invite to gmail (google mail). I'm so happy. I know I haven't posted in a few days and I just want to take some time now to recap a few of my thoughts. First off, I'm amazed at the influence friendship has amongst co-workers. I mean, seriously, if you fuck-up royally you're probably gonna hear it or worse. But friendship amongst co-workers apparently gives you some leeway and forgiveness is much easier to come by. Second, I love Charmed and the character of "Chris" played by Drew Fuller. After the season finale I was almost devastated that they killed him (maybe devastated is too powerful of a word...how about diappointed?), but I'd been anticipating that for a awhile. However, I ready on Variety.com that he's on the list of returning cast members for next season so who knows! I can only hope. I'm not too fond of writing long entries (yeah right!) so I'll end this now and post some more as the day goes by...

Why does work follow you fucking everywhere! I, at least, have been having that problem today. It just won't let go! Ugh, I'm soo frustrated with work related drama. Especially since it's starting to spill into my personal private time. Blah! It's all crap.

There was a rather nasty image imbued on my mind by my boss. Or rather two nasty images. The first is the Lt. Governor in a banana hammock. The other is the Gov in a a banana hammock. My imagination is officially shot! Nuff said....

Did anyone catch American Idol last night? Oh-My-God! I can't believe they voted off the most talented person on the show! Well crap. I sincerely thought LaToya London was gonna end up winning. I hope its NOT Fantasia. Something about her bugs me. Her voice is alright (if not identical to Macy Gray's). I hope its Diana Degarmo (did I spell that right?). She's the only one that's really shown any amount of significant improvement. This past week she was amazing. Ugh, and personally (and I don't whole-heartedly believe this but still) I think Jasmine's tears bought her another week. She totally sucked and rather than taking it (her poor performance and the judge's critiques), she started bawling. Now she just may be an emotional person but I think when you're out there in front of everyone you need to keep your composure. When LaToya was voted off she handled herself in the most perfect way, the way Jennifer Hudson did when she was voted off. She handled herself with poise and gave her best performance ever.

Ok I'm freaking out. I swear to God I just saw a flea on my desk. A f*cking flea! Now I feel like its on me. I know it isn't but I'm "feeling" it. I'm such hypochondriac (does that fall under that?). Mmm...Vakeetia was sitting here. And she's filthy. That may solve the source of the flea. But how do I catch the motherf*cker?

Hmmm...I'm jealous. Alex got an invite for gmail (google mail...1 gig of free space...HELLO!) and I didn't. Apparently it was because he's an active member. Aren't I active enough. Geebus, there's only so much stuff you can think of to post. I mean really, is anyone interested in the mundane, day-to-day crap I do? I was hoping to use this as a way to express myself profoundly (yeah I know, I fell waaay short of that). But now I want gmail. In any case, I'll be contributing more on here now (I know I said that last post, but now I have an incentive) in the hopes of getting an invite. I'm sooo totally selfish. I love it! Ta-ta!!

Well, here's my first post for the month. I'm gonna take a little time and write a bit about some of my current thoughts and such.
Right now I'm at a creative impasse. I feel the thoughts churning in my head but I'm having a hard time committing it to paper. I'd love to write a short story but the footing is difficult to establish. My poems have been keeping me at bay for now but I'm ready to start something grander. Hmm..well see, I need to vent some of this energy.
Ok, I sooo don't know what I want to do with my life. It seems I'm currently stuck in a rut. I have no real incentive right now to aspire to anything greater than I am right now and that's a sad situation to be in. What I really need to do is get my ass back in school. Call it a case of pride but I'm somewhat pessimistic about going back and not achieving what I think I should. I don't know if I'm ready for the commitment again and I don't want to put myself in the situation if I'm not going to be 100% devoted to it. Add that to the fact that I don't necessarily know what profession I'd like to do. God, why does this have to be soo freaking difficult? I'm envious of the people who know what their "calling" is. I've always had several different interests and an inability to be very decisive in this manner. I don't know what I'm waiting for. Perhaps a sign. How fanatical is that?
Well I'm at work and don't want to put myself in a mood so I'm going to distract myself with a game. Until I need to pour some more out...
Robert

Ok, for some odd reason this past week things have been kinda tense at work. Don't really know what the situation is but it has to do with my boss and one of my fellow supervisors. Hmmm...I'll be watching and trying to figure THAT out. On another work thingy, I'm trying to (in a somewhat joking but serious way) get a coworker fired. Let's just say she's not the brightest person and really doesn't contribute much except to the headache that is my antipathy towards her. In any case, I'm keeping an "informal" log of each time she fucks up. Originally I was documenting this on a notepad sheet that has "miraculously" disappeared from my side drawer. Now I'm keeping it as a note log on my Outlook. Lets see if it disappears now!
As for the Madonna re-Invention Tour, after a few days of excitement I've come to my senses. Seeing as how its going to be no where NEAR me, I'd have to fly to a city and just the overall cost of seeing her outweighs the benefits...especially when you consider how poor I am. So I'll just wait for the DVD.
Till later....I'm hoping to get re-excited with this blog. I know I've lagged the past couple of weeks. That's more of a "nothing to write about" thing than just plain laziness.
LATER!!

AHHHH!!! Madonna Re-Invention Tour. I must go. I'm currently looking into the total cost for having to go see her. I think it might end up costing a pretty penny. Eh, you gotta do whatcha gotta do. And I gotta go see her. More info at www.madonna.com

Ahhh....today is the day. FRIDAY!!! Thank god! I can't take all this work crap anymore. I need to rest. Ok...and by rest I mean be lazy. And by lazy I mean LAAAAZZZYYY. In any case, tonite is the Rufus Wainwright concert at La Zona Rosa. I can't wait. I'm getting soooo drizzunk tonite. I can already taste the whiskey and coke in my mouth. And the vodka tonic. And the gin and tonic. And the Long Island. Hmmm....and the buttery nipple (bloody nipple?). And the...yeah, I'm gonna go have a drink :)

hits.

Your Sex Sign is Taurus!

You ooze sensuality and lust!

You're down for anything, as long as it celebrates the natural body.

You're a master at giving head - and as long as it feels good, you'll do it.

Even your lover's nastiest fantasy!



Taurus, you draw your intense sexuality from the earth.

You are strongly built - like a Greek or Roman nude.

Your sign is ruled by the planet Venus - giving you a lusty appetite for sex.



Sexually, you favor the strong, silent type - someone as comfortable in the rugged outdoors as you are.

Intellectual, geeky types don't appeal to you at all.



Your home and surroundings are very imporant to you - it's always your place, not their's.

While you'd never do a hotel fling, you'll have sex outdoors (beach, grass, whatever) -

As long as there is some privacy.



You are very oral - a master at oral sex.

You love your lover to climax in your mouth.

You love any and every kind of foreplay...

and you'll do anything as long as it feels good.

You are more pleasure-oriented than excitement-oriented.



As for weird sexual practices, you are fixed in your likes and dislikes

And you are are anything BUT conventional.

Your basic, carnal nature leads you to engage frequently in oral and anal sex.

Why, you've even been known to give your partner a golden shower on occasion!




What's *Your* Sex Sign?

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You're Ulysses!

by James Joyce

Most people are convinced that you don't make any sense, but compared
to what else you could say, what you're saying now makes tons of sense. What people do
understand about you is your vulgarity, which has convinced people that you are at once
brilliant and repugnant. Meanwhile you are content to wander around aimlessly, taking in
the sights and sounds of the city. What you see is vast, almost limitless, and brings you
additional fame. When no one is looking, you dream of being a Greek folk hero.


Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

I took this quiz that Alex sent me....pretty nifty stuff :) The link for the page is at the bottom of my "country".

You're Ireland!

Mystical and rain-soaked, you remain mysterious to many people, and this
makes you intriguing.  You also like a good night at the pub, though many are just as
worried that you will blow up the pub as drink your beverage of choice.  You're good
with words, remarkably lucky, and know and enjoy at least fifteen ways of eating a potato.
 You really don't like snakes.
Take the Country Quiz at
the Blue Pyramid

Whoops....daddy did a bad thing. Apparently I fucked up a lil bits. We sells flags in my office and my fellow supervisor manages all that crap. Anyways, he uh paperclips the checks we receive and puts them away in a money box. There's an order to that apparently. In any case, I was looking for a check yesterday and I was rummaging through the checkbook and i kinda somewhat got them all mixed up. My bad :( Aside from that today's a pretty boring day with the only excitement coming in the form of a coat I ordered from jcpenney.com and some glasses i ordered from walmart. Its a sad sad life i lead. Yeah....GOTTO GO

I read the funniest thing and I'm posting it here: A Blue whale produces over 400 gallons of sperm when it ejaculates;but only 10% of that actually make it into his mate. So, 360 gallons are spilled into the ocean everytime one unloads....You wonder why the ocean is so salty...
Don't swallow the water!!!

Ahhh....good times. I've recently gotten (is that a word?) in touch with some of my pals from high school. Hmm, its weird how we don't quite keep up with each other as we used to but somehow pick up right where we left off. The true testament of friendship? I suppose. Or maybe we're bored and grasping onto straws of our youth. Nah, its the first one. I really wish I was capable of keeping in touch with people. I'm sooo bad at it. (FYI: If I promise to call you, I probably won't) I'm too expansive of a person to set things in stone. I tend to play things by ear, deciding to finally do something at the last possible minute. Hmm, that reminds me...MY WORK!!

Ok, here's my recap of the preceding days:
My eyes have been irritated so I decided it was the perfect time for eyeglasses. I saw an optometrist and he said the reason for my eye irritation was that when I had pink eye it had caused a scar to develop on my iris and each time I had my contact in in just annoyed the fuck out of the scar. So now I'm getting glasses sometime this week (eeek! high school memories!! BLAH!).
On Monday night I had a crazy dream about my friend Jessica. To make a long story short, she was catching a ride with some friends in my dream and they drove a carrier truck. Well, in the bed of the truck were like cages filled with minature (horse-sized) elephants. There wasn't any room in the cab of the truck so Jessica had to get on top of the cages in the bed. Well anyways, the truck starts pulling away and Jessica falls onto the street. I freak and run to her cuz I figure she's hurt but before I even start moving the cages open and a stampede of elephants step all over her. And she dies.
I'm a weirdo. Anyways, work beckons and so does sleep so I'm gonna try to find a balance between the two.

Ciao.

Aaagh! I'm sooo bored. Work's become dreary today. I think its because the boss ain't in too good of a mood. I'm so happy for my friend Jessica. She's pregnant. This is her second child (her first son, Desmond, is soooo cute [look for a pic of him on my website soon]). I think she should, ahem, name her second son after a very kind and thoughtful friend.
The Academy Awards were awesome. If you know me, you know I love Tolkien's Lord of the Rings. Seeing them win every award they were nominated for was such a treat. Hmmm....it's like the perfect ending.
Omg, I had the craziest dream about Jessica last night. Eh...i'll recap it tomorrow.

Well, I finally joined the tech world (again). I got another cell phone. Hopefully this time I won't be "oughtta control". Its really super mega cute. It's sooo tiny. And light. And pretty. Yup, I luv my phone. Oh yeah! I got my Rufus Wainwright tix in the mail! I'm soo happy. Can't wait. Been working on the webpage....more linking stuff together. I know what everyone wants. More pix. I'm working on it!!! In any case, my eyes are acting crazy (irritated and red) and I'm really scared it could be pink eye (AGAIN!), but i don't think so because the symptoms are totally different. Well, I've got tourists coming through the office I need to scream at so...bye.

President Bush just announced he supports a constitutional amendment to define marriage as a union between a man and a woman. Now if only we could pass a constitutional amendment to keep stupid people from the presidency. I'm sorry but I think this is a civil rights retrogression if this amendment makes it through. How many amendments have there been to the constitution in the past 228 years? Twenty-seven. How many have intentionally created second class citizens in the populace? None. How many came about by social whim only to be repealed? One (Prohibition. Ratified in 1919, repealed in 1933). One shouldn't amend the constitution to promote personal points of view. I'm done.

Goddamn co-worker is one upping me. He's creating some program to make our jobs a lot easier. Hmmm...I need to think of something to impress them. Hmmm...my incredible "man-pleasing" powers? Nah. I'm thinking. Inspiration will hit. Hopefully sooner than later.

Apparently I posted a dead link. I'm gonna try to repost it but let me just tell you exactly what I'm linking you to. There are rumors flying around the capitol about our dear ole governor. This site is what's causing all the buzz and I think you'll either be pleasantly suprised (you Democrat, you!) or devastatingly heart-broken (you bitch Republican). In either case, if this is true then WOAH! There's nothing concrete (as this site will tell you), but you know there's always fire where there's smoke. Aight, I'll post the damn link now...Enjoy! www.burntorangereport.com/archives/001102.html

Something interesting: http://www.burntorangereport.com/archives/001102.html

I had the craziest dreams last night. In one I was like a porn star's assistant and had to get a background check on a potential "cast mate". Yeah, I dunno. In another, I was living in like a garage apartment with some guy. It was late at night and I needed to get something out of my trunk. I go outside to the parking lot which is near a clearing with a wooded area on the edge. Anyways, I'm trying to close the trunk when I hear some freaky noises, like two crazed men, in the woods. I try to hurry up and then i hear a shuffling towards me. I freak and run and that's when I woke up. I think the porn star dream was more fun, but I remember the other one better. Yeah....gotta go!

Well, we've lost he White House. Thanx Nader! Thanx a lot!!

Just ordered me some Rufus Wainwright tickets. Yea! Friday, March 12 at La Zona Rosa. Ok, time for bed. G'nite.

Can't sleep...Klown will eat me (Simpsons reference). Yeah, can't sleep. Updated the webpage though. I'm gonna work on some poetry and hopefully hit the sack pretty soon. Later

Is honesty the best policy? It's just been brought to my attention that I'm somewhat brutally honest. IS that the best thing? I mean, I personally think honesty is a totally subjective thing. It's one thing if you're gonna hurt someone's feelings. It's another if your giving an objective opinion. There's no point in lying to someone unless its gonna dramatically change their life or compromise your relationship with someone. I don't know. Felt like a good entry.

Ok...I luckily don't have to take a course tomorrow on our new time sheet system. My pal Jessica went, said it was a waste of time, gave me a copy of their reference card and pretty much showed me how it worked (Thanx Jess!). I'm continuing to work on my webpage and I think its getting there...there's still a lot of work that needs to be done and some pages need to be redone but I'm really pouring my time (at work) into it. I'm amazed at how...I guess the word I'm looking for is versatile...Alex is because he's working on some Greenlight Project contest. It's really kool. I'm so envious because I don't have the abstract creativity to make a storyline out of 5 pix (for more info, check out the yahoo homepage). He's sooo creative and I hope he does an awesome job. Correction, I know he'll do an awesome job. Well, it's time for bed. Adios.

BAH....just found out I really need training for the new time sheet system and the last 2 demonstrations are tomorrow. Great. Just needed to bitch.

I'm still trying to figure out this blog stuff. It's not that simple. Apparently you have to use code n stuff....not quite sure how to do that (ok, I don't know how it works at all). On the plus side I'm having a blast updating my webpage on geocities. For some reason I can't link my webpage from my blog....need to talk to Alex about linking stuff on here. Anyways, the URL for my webpage is www.geocities.com/ray_of_light2000....yes, I'm a Madonna freak. At work we've switched over from groupwise to outlook...and its causing a big mess. I'm still trying to figure out how to utilize outlook the best and next week we start a new program for the time sheets. I hate learning. Anywho...just wanted to get that off my chest...

Ok...now that I'm fully awake and rested. This blog thing is soo kool. I really need to thank Alex for introducing this to me. This is exactly what I need...a venue to express myself without having to add any sort of structure to it.
I don't have much to say now except that I'm finallystructuring my webpage. I'm hoping to have a decent, coherent page that anyone could navigate.
You can view my webpage at . Hopefully by the time you visit it'll be nice and pretty.
Adieu

Wow! I can't believe I got this started. I'm not used to actually thinking of something and following through with it. I flake... A LOT. Yeah anyways, I'm tired now (bedtime) and I'll work on this tomorrow at work when I'm fiddling with my thumbs. Lalalala...good nite.