It's been awhile since I've contributed anything to this blog. We can attribute that to not having much to say. I consider myself a pretty vocal person when it comes to expressing my thoughts or ideas but up until recently I really haven't had any need to express myself. Madonna would cry "For shame!".

Personally, I feel like I'm stagnant. You know, just kinda going through the day to day motions. I can't pinpoint when I stopped caring about things. I guess it happens to everyone at some point or another. A sort of midlife crisis, I guess. I've always been something of an idealist, dreaming of the impossible and how I was going to change the world. Reality sank in and expelled any ambition, dream or interest in its way. Apathy is a bad place to be.

I don't want this post to be a total downer. Just want to express the mood and place I feel like I've been in for the past few years. It's not as bleak or as depressing a portrait as I've painted either. Thoughts roam when you see people getting married or moving in together, children growing, people graduating and moving on to exciting or rewarding careers. You can't help but feel left behind at some point, as if you jumped off a train and the other passengers are so much further down the track than you are.

If anything I want this to be a marker of when I changed my mind and decided to do something different. I want this to be an indication of when I set about changing what I had been bitching about for so long. I want to be able to look back and see where the complacency ended and a man decided to pick himself up and keep moving.

I really don't remember why I started this blog. Probably because it was the "in" thing to do at the moment. Without glancing at previous posts I can surmise that it's mostly filled with fluff and filler. I want to contribute more substance in the future, more developed thoughts on my opinions and events going on in the world.